Remember

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I’m never far from it. Infertility. Perhaps it’s the fact that my muscles are dutifully stuck in warring resistance, so full of this fight we have so audaciously fought. And you know what? We won! We won this sucker with a little bit of gumption and a whole lotta gluten free bagels. We did it!

 

And I forget. Because there are days when my mind wanders down that well-worn road and my muscles ache with fatigue from the fight. There are days when I fixate on the time that was stolen, or the time we still have, or the possibility of siblings — the possibility of another war.

 

But here you are, kicking with life inside. Finally!

 

And I forget.

 

And the truth is that I don’t know. I don’t know how difficult it’ll be to conceive again. I don’t know the why for the when. I don’t know. But I DO know that I want to remember. I want to remember you here and now, just like this.


Big shoutout to our friends at Avenue Creative for capturing these fleeting moments and for helping me to stop and remember this time with you.

 

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2 thoughts on “Remember

  1. Dear Brittany,

    It’s difficult to put into words just how happy I am to see these photos and to read your blog.

    I subscribe to Blessed is She, and there have been 1 or 2 writers whose daily message really made an impact. Yours was one… and when I read your poignant accounts of dealing with infertility, I was moved to tears.

    So I added you to my daily prayers and I begged God to recognise just how much your words make a difference to us (your unknown sisters in Faith) and if not for your own faith, then for those of us whose spiritual lives have been changed by your words, to hear our prayers.

    To see you pregnant now and looking so happy fills me with so much joy. I know my God is a good and merciful God who always hears the prayers of his children.

    Congratulations! I will continue to keep you in my prayers!

    Fiona

  2. Our youth group just returned from Steubenville NW in Spokane WA. One year ago, your David spoke to our group. He shared your journey with infertility and you have been in our prayers. TO find out that you are expecting…just one year later…gives me so. much. JOY. God Bless you both and this precious life you are carrying! Thanking God or miracles! Thanking God for your courage on the journey!

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